Waiting

Waiting stinks.  Let's face it.  Lines, traffic, holidays, payday, we have to wait for a lot of things.  I'm pretty sure there's a reason for all this waiting that is a part of our lives.  It is made even harder by the instant gratification of the information age.  Got two minutes?  Then pull out your phone, check your email, look at Facebook, play a game, or whatever.  Time marches on whether we use it or not.

I think the Lord sets up all this waiting for a good reason.  We are to do things in the Lord's time and not on our time.  Doing things too soon brings unhappy consequences.  Just ask Adam and Eve.  They were instructed not to eat of the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil.  But if they had just waited, perhaps when the time was right the Lord would have given them a commandment to partake of the fruit.  They would not have fallen.

So it seems to be with all the good things we desire in life.  I find myself aching to be in the presence of the Lord.  I think back often to my baptism of fire.  The love that poured forth from the presence of God was indescribable.  I wish I could experience it forever and never lose it.  I desire greatly to have such an experience again, but the Lord does things on His own schedule.

It seems to me that the Lord will give us all the blessings we desire, but waiting is part of mortality.  Time is appointed only to men in the flesh, but in the eternal world it has no meaning.  I yearn for the day when I am able to fully comprehend why and how this is.

As it is, I must wait for the Lord.  For me, it is part of the test of mortality.  I can't honestly say that I wait patiently, but wait I will.  It is a test of my trust and faith in God to wait for Him.  It forces me to seek him more earnestly, and to seek His will in what I should do while I wait.   But I love Him and will wait my whole life if I must.  He has promised me I would obtain whatever I sought in life, and I seek Him above all else.  I look forward to His coming, whenever it is.  I hope He will bless me to learn from my waiting.

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Just a note - I took down a couple of posts and edited a couple of others.  I went back and read my posts and realized that a few things I had written did not have a spirit of love in them.  Whatever unpleasant things are happening with the Church and its leaders, I still must offer love and kindness in return, and I will be trying to focus on more positive things.  I think there is a place for pointing out errors and false doctrine, but I need to limit my role in that.